The crumpling sound of leaves being stepped on entranced
George as he made his way into the deep forest. As he headed further and
further in, he was relieved that the sun had finally set. The last thing he
wanted was to have someone look at him. George had spent many of the past
nights not being able to fall asleep, making his face a ghastly sight. His
blotchy red face and sagging dark eyes was something he did not want others to
see. Not that it mattered of course, for it was going to be over soon. George
needn’t be worried of things such as this. After all, nothing mattered to him
anymore.
When George found a clearing in the
forest, he decided it was a decent enough place. A mediocre spot for a mediocre person, thought George as he gave
himself a grim smile. George wasn’t a top student, nor was he athletic. Being
the son of a divorced mother and father left him little to be proud about. He
had never won any school contests and didn’t have anything special. His life
was an epitome of the word mediocre.
As far as George could remember, he was raised independently,
with very little love or affection given to him from birth. Often times, George
would be alone in his room as his parents would constantly fight or have somewhere
important to go to. Ironically enough, because of his independent upbringing,
George grew to be a dependent person. He depended on the approval of others as
a way of feeling appreciated and meaningful. George became the class clown,
trying to make others laugh even if it was at the expense of his dignity. So
long as he made others happy, he felt meaningful. But as time progressed
throughout his high school life, George felt less and less meaningful from the
laughter he created. Unhappiness grew inside his heart like an expanding void
of cold and darkness. Now it was inescapable. Not even in his sleep could he
run away from this depression. It had been many years since he had nightmares,
yet they were back again, chasing George inside his unconscious mind.
George took a deep breath and
sighed. The scent of fresh pinewood lingered in his nose as he breathed out
warm foggy air. George shivered in the freezing cold winter night, although he
had already felt this cold inside himself for months. He had contemplated for
weeks on what to do. He was scared of the future, he didn’t want to grow up.
George wanted to stay as a kid, but as he approached his final year of high
school George had to look at the truth in the eye; he was going to become an
adult whether he liked it or not. I’m
just not ready, he thought as he encircled the forest clearing. The night
was pitch black with a faint glimmer from the moon, allowing George to trace
his footsteps along the clearing’s perimeter.
He stopped and unzipped his jacket,
bringing it out from his inside pocket. “Glock-18, semi-automatic 9 mm beauty”,
his father would proudly say with a grin. “It’ll wipe the boots off anyone who
tries to mess with me”. What a shame it would be to have his father realize that
his own prized pistol ended his son. George traced his finger across the smooth
metal finish. The exterior of the gun felt cold and ruthless. He held it out in
front of his face and inspected the gun, turning it over and admiring the
smooth edges. He was ready to see what was on the other side.
“What do you think you’re doing?”
George stopped. Slowly turning
around, he saw the silhouette of a man facing him underneath the moon light.
“None of your business. This doesn’t
concern you.”
“Oh it absolutely does”, he replied.
“Why so? Back off now, or I’ll
shoot. I mean it.” George snarled at the man angrily.
The man raised his hands up and
calmly stepped forward towards George. As the man stepped in, George quickly
backed off and continued to aim the gun at the unknown man.
“Easy there son. We don’t want any
accidents”. The man’s voice was soothingly calm, almost fatherly. George couldn’t
stop his hand from shaking as he gripped onto the gun, from fear of what would
happen and from the frosty night’s cold.
“One more step and I’ll k-kill you”
he stammered. The man continued walking towards him, hands raised in the air. With
each step he took, the boy took a step back.
“What do you want, why aren’t you
leaving?” George demanded.
“I want you to relax and put the gun
down.” He replied simply.
“What’s wrong with you? Don’t think
I’m bluffing when I say I’ll shoot you.”
“Do as you please”, the man said. “But
I care about you, and I don’t want you to do this.” George stopped and squinted
at the man. Was he being serious? How could someone say they cared for someone
if they didn’t even know that person?
“Yeah you definitely care about me.”
George laughed darkly. “Just like how much my friends and family care”. There
was silence. The man slowly lowered his hands and relaxed.
“Think about it. What kind of a
person would risk their life to stop someone from shooting themselves, unless
if it were because they cared about the person?” The man asked.
“A complete dumbass, I’ll tell you
what.” George retorted.
“No. Because I know that if you pull
the trigger on me, I’ll die. But if you pull the trigger on yourself, part of
me will die with you as well. That’s why I’m willing to risk my life for you.”
“I can see two different men. One
man gave up on life and chose the weak path; he chose to end it in order to
escape his life. Another man chose to stay resilient and better himself and his
life, regardless of how bad the situation is. I hope I’m talking to the latter
person.”
George closed his eyes. He raised up his arm and held the gun
firmly. An audible click could be heard. George suddenly stopped shivering as
he held the gun up. He stared into the barrel of the pistol and waited. The man
calmly waited. It seemed as if the entire forest was waiting, waiting for the
boy to end the silence.
Thud.
The man slowly picked up the gun, turned
the safety switch on, and took out the clip of ammunition from the pistol. He
handed the gun back to George.
“Thank you.” George said quietly.
“Just doing what’s right.” The man
responded monotonously. He gave George a solemn salutation and turned around,
his silhouette never failing to hide his identity. George stood there, watching
as the stranger’s shadow got smaller and smaller under the glimmering
moonlight.